This is me today, a mess and almost dead. well, i was cooking up an experiment. k not really. Well, i had hot mashed potatoes + chocs in my 7 11 plastic bag, i went to bath, by the time i came back half my chocolates we're melted. So i was "hmmm, good idea, melted chocs!" Walked down to my kitchen, opened all the chocs into a bowl and stuffed it in the microwave. After a minute, only half was melted. So i left it for another minute, i walked to the kitchenwindow to take some fresh air in and when i turned around my whole kithen was covered in smoke! omg so i quickly took a towel and fanned all the smoke away, i was so scared to open the microwave i tell you..my head could have been blowed up. so i stoood right at the side and hurrily pressed the 'open' button and pray. k nothing then i burned my fingers.I FAILED MYSELF. Unsucessful. i am so stupid la ok

i love it when you unexpectedly show up right at my carpark, and ask me to look out the windowpane and then tell me how much you could'nt take it but just had to come because you miss me!it always melts me how you surprise me & always making me smile all the time. It's funny how you can be mad at someone one moment and want to hug them the next. Life is funny sometimes. My love for you is too much to handle, even i'm going mad just thinking of it and conveying it into words.

i can't tell you how much you fill, but i can tell you that you fill the most.
I love you. I love every little thing about you..your sexy hands, your adorable smile, the sound of your voice, the magic in your eyes. I love your gentle touch and the warmth I feel at your side... I love dreaming about you. I love how you don't run when I push you away, and still not let go. I love discovering you and letting go with you. I love each and every once a lifetime moment I share with you... today, tomorrow, forever

You know when they say..'The best things in life are free' ?Well that expression is true. Such is love. It's when your brain shuts off, and your heart turns on

I AM IN LOVE. L-O-V-E. Yes, i know love even if it hit me right in the face (jshdjah whaaat)

i woke up with you all over in my mind&
this intense feeling of, love
seeping into every corner, every inch of my skin.
Rainy days,
time for the longsleeves& warmhugs
love is about joking & laughing then farting :] (hee, inside situation)

i'm having mini eggs out of a zara paperbag at 2 in the morning & talking to my
goldfish friend.










i am going to be drowned in prozac nation this whole week ,
im positive













i made the biggest mistake in my life today.
lets forget about today.
i love you

So finally its friday, ok thought i'd be super happy today haha but sadly.
the only thing that i was looking foward to today that cheered me up
was the new acer. I know, how superficial. yeah well
come to think of it, i've nothing much to look foward to
and the things that i'm suppose to be looking foward to,
well i'm not. i dont know must be the pms haaa




my little robot<3








Tomorrow is a friday, and fridays are closer to sundays. I am Happy. ok, its not like i dont have holidays all the other days but fir does, and i get to see him! :D so anyway, i get my new acer notebook tomorrow, yay finaaaaaly. I am excited. i wrote a post before this but i dont know why i deleted it. yeah but anyway,
i have a migrain, i think its the heat. I feel so, fatique.


goodnight i sleep.

puremorning.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE!
Someone just turned ninteen. wah wah, big boy
i want to wish you *(insert whatever people say during birthdays.)*

O k i wokeup at four thirty, because of my sister scaring herself about pocongs waking up beside her and also about rolling pocongs hahahaha or however you spell it. So, she thought maybe i should hear about the story. Ok, i was kinda freaked as you knowww, im very scared of ghosts haunting me. yes yes, laugh i know, i know. and when i was about to shut my eyes she goes, "NO RUTH! DONT SLEEEP!" *mumbles to herself while tucking herself in* "wah, cannot sleep with the light off, wahh cannot ccannot." so guess who slept with a night light on? muahah ok was funny then and in my mind.

eh damn cute ok. i gave him a goldmine cheesecake for a birthday cake. (haha) sounds attractive dontcha think. yeah k anyway and his response was ' i heart you'. awwwwwwwww!
I'M DAMN HAPPPPPPPPY.







can we keep a balance, between the pressure and the pleasure






I find the map and draw a straight line over rivers, farms, and state lines
the distance from here to where you'd be, it's only finger-lengths that i see
i touch the place where i'd find your face, my finger increases of distant dark places. <3






you can occupy my every sigh, you can rent a space inside my mind at least untill the price becomes too high.






sometimes i wonder how i can act like i don't care
when i sure as hell care a lot.
why do we always have to read between the lines?
why do we say things that we don't mean,
even though we want to say otherwise.
why do we make communication so hard and not speak our minds?

anyway,

i am constantly thinking of monday & how lovely its going to turn out.
i have faith in it. :] ( ha ha )
i know we're going to enjoy it.
world, you think i just love love my boyfriend, but you have no idea. :]

"and you could say goodnight instead of just goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye goodbye."






dear soldierboy, guess who misses you singing her to sleep everynight.






Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
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Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
Money should never be deciding your day. &im going to tell myself this everyday.
Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
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Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.
Money should never be deciding your day. Money should never be deciding your day.














Tonight was great, it has been so long since ive last seeeen you, ok so it wasnt that long
but try being away from someone so damn cute. Tonight started out so fine, us being our looney selves, making fun of each other, ok more like you making fun of me! but its ok, like what you said, it wasnt infront of everyone, yeap, our inside jokes. Ok si-ri-us ly. ours are the best. it makes me laugh so hard and it all keeps me happy. No, screw the jokes. You, make me the happiest. Effortlessly. aww i love you!
and well how it ended.............
with the very melancholic mood that we were in
i knew we were just going to bask in each other's anguish.
in hope that it will just wear off. Ok, not only today for the rest of the days
but i still had a good day tho. I'm sorry to spoil the very end of today(I'M A GOD DAMN FUCKING SPOILER.) lovely
remember, what we talked about. Yeah, time will tell
and maybe your right? about the whole fate thing? and im sure its gonna be great

&& your 'devilish screaming' and grabbing me like that. omfg scaryyyyyyyy but sexy voice babe haha


it hurt's sometimes,
lying in bed and letting your every single thought
swirl around your head works better.
because nobody can hear you. nobody can read you. nobody can see you.






collect all that negetivity in our minds, bury it, lock it in a box, throw the key away, stabbbb it.
Just Erase it all.
Cause if we dont, you know all that negetivity that haunts us..
Like a film, the scenes of negetivity will keep replaying in our heads over
&over
&over again.
so, what'd ya say..wanna do this together? atleast Try.
o k so i really dont want anything bad to happen between us and,
i really think we can overcome this oversized obstacle. Serious.
:]

just hear me out
i'm not over you yet, never will be
It’s love on the line, can you handle it?


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARIEANN!
and sheeee is fourteeeen. deng deng deng
ok today was fun la. had all my friends there, most..
tasha and her 'harley'. hilarious anyway everyone was
being fun la, ok again, most. so i fell of a bike. No wait.. Jumped off a bike.
Nope, not trying to pull any james-bond-kind-of-stunts, just thought i should before
we crash. haha we were like 16256153 m before that pole thingy la. dammnnn me.
i'm going to be left with scars, im going to have grotesque skin, no body will want me, im going to die alone, bruised and wounded. :c (ha ha ha) ok not. so anyway, i got up to realise that ive got
those jeans ripped. :c again. ah well, accidents happen. &&& because of this how am i going to tan? SO instead, im going out with tasha & jackie. :]

Ninjai the little ninja. ( i got skill, yo)

ps: i miss you too felly and im sure "ruthybaby's whole jing-gang" misses you too haha












the frustration, the goodbyes, the drama
you're going to love it!


raaaar. sometimes i wish i could just disappear.
:[

& i'm being mind loved this very moment by the one person ill always love,
so is he.













i realised right, people say _____ is the sex. like they really knew
Im ugly. Even on the inside.



SYEDFIRDHAUS.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOREVER & I PROMISE YOU EVERYTHING I SAID. Period.

its november.
have an awesome one lovelies, because we all deserve to.

november is turning out well for me already. :]
goodbye depression, hello sunshine.
ok tomorrow i am going 'job hunting' with jackiebigyouwannatouchmytitties.( haha kidding jac.)
aim: earn some bucks & fill that void. haha k give me the money.